i think i need to take a little tumblr break. i’m in the unique position where i am now spending a lot of time with the people back home that i used to write this for, and the people that i am writing this for now i am able to communicate a lot more eloquently and personally on the telephone or through email.

i’ll be back on here but a lot is changing. i will say that i am transferring to a new school next semester, so if you need to unfollow/stop reading my blog because my life is no longer relevant to yours, go for it. i won’t be offended, i promise.

i’m not leaving with any bitterness. i’m leaving because i’m undecided and it’s hard for me to be around so many people who already know exactly what they’re doing in three years. i’m leaving because i was unable to find contentment within such a narrow focus. i’m going somewhere new with an open curriculum and a bigger campus and fewer acting majors.

i haven’t told many people at all, but i have told the people who have directly impacted my life in the past year and in turn, will be directly impacted by my departure. it’s hard to communicate to these people that i’m leaving because of me, not them, and that last year, they saved me from a tiny existence of just riding underground trains and reading the internet and compulsive spending.

it’s hard to communicate to them that i love them and that it’s so hard to willingly walk away from them. but i’ve tried and hopefully through sentence fragments and stutters and the nervous lisp that sometimes turns on, they do understand.

i think my loose ends are tied up and i’m not really looking to start over, but to start it up again, to get claire 2.0 back on her feet, maybe learn a language, take some sociology classes, keep writing, and stop complaining to the world from a computer screen.

xxxx